Blogs are a great place for confessions, no? You can tell your secrets to the world and have you blogging BFFs assure you that everything is going to be ok. Thus, I have another confession for you and it concerns my return to training.
While vacation helped reignite the fire to train, a scary equation took over my psyche yesterday:
A week of no running due to the sickness from hell + A week of casual running due to vacation + Return to training with a double digit run = One scared red head.
Sometimes it’s not our physical capabilities that hinder us the most, but instead it’s our own mental competition and that’s exactly what I did. For some reason, I psyched myself out to a point of running apprehension. Me? Apprehensive about running? That’s blasphemy! But the thought of my body not being able to perform to the level I knew it was capable of consumed me and the phrase “muscle atrophy” kept replaying in my head. So what did I do to tackle this “return to training”? Well, to be honest, I think I did an hour’s worth of nothingness around the apartment before I even laced up. This included switching running outfits twice, cruising iTunes, uploading photos and talking baby voice to Lola…you know, the usual. But after that hour, I ran out of things to preoccupy myself with and slapped myself back into reality: get out there and run, damn it. And so I did.
The fog was ridiculously thick as I made my way down one of my usual paths: through my town and along the vineyards of Livermore. While my hygiene wasn’t pretty (I spit and blew more snot rockets than I would care to count – you know you do them too), it was a refreshing return to what I love the most. The cool air was perfectly refreshing, the fog created that eerie appeal that makes the usual scenery seem like you’ve traveled to somewhere new and my pace surprised was surprisingly brisk.
Why is it that we let ourselves be our own worst enemies? It can chew you up and spit you out, but in the long run, we can always prevail. So I’d like to know, how do you overcome your mental challenges when it comes to running?
Day 22: 12 miles
Day 23: 6 miles